Apology Purgatory

Almost everybody has one of these...and if not, kudos to you. Chances are it means you face your demons head on and don't let bad dreams haunt you for very long.

There is a person who was once very important to me, and in fact still is. Despite the friendship we had, I chose to make some questionable decisions and say some stupid things. Being the stubborn block-head that I sometimes am, I have failed to ever truly apologize to this person for my thick-skulled commentary. Thinking that things would blow over or just go away, I decided to leave them be. Not only did the problem go away...but the friendship slowly slipped away with it. Deservedly so, I now feel like I have almost completely lost this friendship that I once had and evidently took for granted.

Life is too short to avoid people who are important to us because we have made an ill-advised quip and are too proud to admit our error. In running from our problems, we also simultaneously run from our friends. Not every one of those friends is going to chase us down to ask if we're cool. And why should they when it is us who should turn around and run back to them?

Lastly, as always, I will leave you with a song. Third Eye Blind has become one of my favorite bands. Here is their track "Crystal Baller":

I close my eyes and I see a freak
I think it's me and I'm afraid to speak
I keep on going from week to weakness
Way out in a line 

Dream of lives we could of had before
The heat is broke down, open doorways
Friends of yours, tell me more
What happens in your mind? 

Can we try and take the high road?
Though we don't know where it ends
I wanna be your crystal baller
I wanna to show you how it ends 

Macramé queens in the afternoon
And I'm in tune or did I speak too soon?
Punch drunk off of somebody's joke
What happened to the time? 

A foot note in your dance of days
In my mind that record still plays
Still wonder what the fuck it says
Hoping there is time 

Can we try and take the high road?
Though we don't know where it ends
I want to be your crystal baller
I can show you how it ends
Good 

Can we talk about tomorrow? (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
And the promise that it brings? (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I wanna be your crystal baller (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I want to show you everything (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it) 

I wonder what the whole thing's for?
I wonder what the whole thing's for? 

In the moment you were screaming at me
I must have been somebody else
And the patrons of the pub keep singing 

Macramé queens in the afternoon
And I'm in tune or did I speak too soon?
Punch drunk off of somebody's joke
What happened to the time? 

Dream of lives we could of had before,
But the heat is broke down, open doorways
Like waiting for a trick to score
It seems that way sometimes 

I wonder where we're all going?
I'm homesick for your primal knowing
I wonder why the wind keeps blowing
You through my mind? 

Try and take the high road (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
Remember we were friends (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I wanna be your crystal baller (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I wanna be your diamond ring (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it) 

The one I never gave you (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
And the promise that it brings (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
Let me be your crystal baller (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I will show you everything (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it)
I'll be your crystal baller (some get it, some must wait a while, some get it) 

Crystal baller
Be your crystal baller
Crystal baller